And the days are moving..

The days are dry.. A bit of sleepy mood is still there. I think the present chill climate is one of the reasons [ may be a lame reason :D ]. These days are often filled with friends visits. I didn't get much time to think about myself. Always I have been in gatherings these days.

I'm looking forward for some privacy and time for myself.. May be because I have been pretty much used to be alone.. My mind demands to be alone sometimes.. To spend some quality time with myself. To do something that I want to do. Not to have any diversions. Not to be disturbed by other's thoughts and actions. To get lost in my own world and thoughts.

Those are about my inside world. On the outer side, my friend has booked Avatar 3D show tomorrow. I wasn't much interested to go though I wanted to watch the movie. May be because I have lots of works to complete. The main reason is I don't want to spend huge money in movies. But when he asked me, it was kind of tempting.. One of the reasons could be it is 3D. "It is okay to have some entertainment..", I thought. So I said 'yes'. This might be the last movie, a probable last movie, that I might be watching in multiplex. Lets see.

And the inside world again.. Lots of random thoughts are going in my mind. Mind is always racing with lots of 'how do i do..', 'how do i do's.. Nowadays I'm getting too much frustrated for lots of things. I think I have to do something for it. One side of my mind says not to waste any time, but the other side of my mind still in the edge of laziness.

Lets see how things are going to be. Finally I'm getting some time for myself. The house is empty. But my mind is not, which is a good thing :)

Looks like..

Looks like this is not what I want :-) Perhaps something else.. Though I say this, I'm still in confused state..

If you are finding difficulty to understand what I'm writing about, it is good.. Good for you, as long as you don't understand what I'm writing about.. If you understand, then perhaps I'm not writing what I wanted.. Confused??? My intention in this post is to write something that others not able to understand ;-)

Ok.. Enough fun.. Get back to life!!

Where is it going?

Is it what I really want..? I dunno. Feel like living in a world of illusions.. Will this get me what I want? Or is it just going to be 'yet another monsoon breeze'? Though I feel happy about it, the cells of experience is putting me on alert. At times, it even worries [ is 'worry' a right word to use here, dunno know] me..

What am I suppose to do? Go on..? by hoping that something good will happen..

Sometimes [ is it just sometimes or 'most of the times'? ] I feel that this is what I want in my life.. This is what would keep me happy.. But at the same time, I dunno why, I am little confused as what I should do.

I just couldn't understand the magic of life.. When I want to move away, it just follows me.. When I turn back, it just hides.. It gives me a feel of playing 'hide and seek' game in a sweet little winter night..

Here is yet another interesting part of my life.. A chapter with lots of excitements and twists that will make the readers to keep on turning the pages. Will these characters appear in the upcoming chapters..? God only knows :-)

Is God concentrating on quantity than quality?

There are people who are blind, not able to see the beauty of this world, yet surviving with their senses of hearing and talking.. There are people who are deaf, not able to hear the magic of the sound, yet surviving with their sense of sight (and possibly sometimes talking).. There are people who are dumb, not able to express what they feel, yet surviving with their senses of hearing and seeing.. These pattern, what people call as 'God's creation', always made me to wonder is it God concentrating more on quantity rather than quality? Instead of creating one deaf, one blind and one dumb persons, why cannot He create a single human being with all these capabilities?

Why is that He takes away the life of those who have high aspirations to live and leaving those who desparately wanting to die...

Is it that He is such a sadistic game player???

PS: This post is just to read and forget.. Don't chew these thoughts in the back of your mind.. Have good times :-)