Some incident testing my honesty :)

It was 8 p.m. when I reached home. I was feeling very hungry.. 'May be because I didn't have snacks in the evening', I thought. Recently a new restaurant had been opened near the place where I live. They had highlighted Briyani as their special dish. I was looking for a right day to try it and I thought 'today would be the best day to try' since I was feeling very hungry.

Thoughtful seating arrangements, colorful decorations, nice music.. the environment was very good.. the menu had limited items.. 'may be they want to concentrate on quality of the items than the quantity', i thought inside. One guy came to take the order. He was very polite. Did I mention 'very'.. yes.. he was very polite.. and waited for my order.. I glanced through the items and said, "gimme egg Briyani.. hmm and a chicken curry". He noted down what I said and was about to leave.

"ah hmmmm.. wait a minute..", I stopped him. Thought for a while and said, "make it chicken 65.. not chicken curry.."

He corrected the order. He tried to repeat the order, "one plate chicken 65 and a chicken Briyani..' and watched my expression.

I smiled and said, "no.. chicken 65 and egg Briyani.."

He gave a kind of expression that said, 'oops..' and then went inside. He then served water in a stylish glass.. It was mineral water.. 'nice..', I said to myself.

The food came. I took a bite on 65ed chicken [I was trying to sound like 'fried' chicken, 'grilled' chicken etc.. excuse me for my english :D], it tasted good. I tried the Briyani.. The taste was again good. Finally some good restaurant nearby.. I felt good.

The bill arrived. It was mentioned as "Briyani rice and chicken 65" and the total amount mentioned was Rs. 10 lesser than what it was supposed to be since I ordered Egg Briyani, which was Rs. 10 more than the Briyani rice. First I felt happy that "wow.. they have missed Rs. 10.." But that was just for few seconds, then immediately my inner sense woke up and said to me, "dude.. be honest.. tell them that they wrongly billed.."

I was about to say it, but then my other part of the mind said, "wait.. if you tell that the items were wrong in the bill, he (the guy who took the order and brought the bill) is surely going to get screwed by his boss.. and his boss might not trust him anymore for sure". 'He might even lose his job for this kind of carelessness..', I thought.

Now, I'm confused!

"Do I want to save this guy or want to be honest..?", I asked myself. 'If I try to save this guy, it would probably mean that I'm allowing him to do this mistake again..', I thought.. I don't know what to do now..

I thought for a while.. and then, "ah.. hell with them! I save 10 rupees..", I thought.. :D 'anyway these guys charge so much for food.. they losing 10 rupees is OK..' :P

I added half of that amount (Rs. 5) to the tip.. '50-50', I thought.. and I left..

OK.. Don't look at me like that.. I'm a good person only :D I just wanted to save that guy, honestly..

But after reaching home, I thought that I should have told him privately that he wrongly billed and I didn't tell just because he might end up in trouble. I should have also advised him not to be careless again.

And for my honesty, I will add that 10 rupees to my charity fund and give it to some needy person. Trust me, I will do that :-)

Aren't we better than lots of other people..?

Sometimes back I got a forward SMS from one of my friends that read "We always feel that life of others is better than us.. but we forget that we are also 'OTHERS' to someone else..!"

How true is that statement.. Isn't it? I see so many people complain about their life. They complain that they don't have shoes while there are people who don't have feets. They complain they don't have good goggles to wear while there are people who don't have the vision to see the world. And the list goes on and on.

Dreaming big isn't a wrong thing. Taking effort to better your life, life style, status, luxury or whatsoever isn't a wrong thing. Taking effort to better ourself emotionally, personally, financially and in all aspects should be there. But at the same time, are we appreciating what we have got right now with us, which are even beyond imagination for someone else. Are we thankful for the life that we have been offered..? I think it requires deep thinking to answer that question. Shouldn't the efforts for betterment be on top of gratitude of what we have got so far instead of the complains?

Lets think about it..

Prepare for the unexpected..

Life isn't always easy.. Smooth sailing isn't always possible.. Just because things have been good doesn't mean that it will continue to be the same for the rest of your life. It is important to understand this and be prepared to handle the tough time. Of course, you shouldn't be missing the joy and happiness of the present moments, especially when things are going in the right direction. But getting ourself prepared to face the varying rhythms of life becomes important to keep ourself moving ahead irrespective of the situations we face.

It works the other way as well. Just because you are going through bad time doesn't mean that your rest of the life is going to be a hell. The climate change, the wind changes its directions, it rains when you don't expect, it becomes cold, it becomes hot.. so as the life.. Expecting the unexpected can help to handle the 'ups and downs' of the life easily.. It also gives more joy when things happen in the right way and reduces the stress when things don't go well since you have 'kind of' expected it..

I always see that people get upset when things suddenly change [including 'me' sometimes]. They get into a horrible state of stress and unable to handle the truth that things aren't the same as what it was few seconds back. They are not prepared. Handling the brighter side of life is always easy. Because when things go well, you automatically be filled with lots of energy, so moving ahead isn't that difficult.

Problem comes when things change in the negative direction. Especially when you haven't expected and not yet prepared for the change. It is always good to have a backup plan as 'what if it doesn't go well..?' But thinking of 'what if' shouldn't be ruining your present moments and eventually force things to go wrong :-D So enjoy the present moments. At the same time, prepare yourself to handle the truth that 'life becomes tough at times'..

More importantly, develop the attitude of concentrating on 'what to do' when tough time comes.. Worrying isn't going to change anything. Fight the hard times. Think what you need to do to bring the things back to normal.. Be flexible to change your plans when things are not going in the way you expect, yet getting to the place where you want to be. Always get to know the multiple routes to the same destination. If one route doesn't work out, try different routes. Have different plans for life. Face and handle the change in the situation.. Of course, you cannot change the destination, but you can change the route according to the situation and still reach your destination..

Remember that life is what we make it.. what we choose to do.. it is absolutely based on the decisions we make. We can choose to fight back the situations or we can choose to get killed by the situations.. Every second of the life demands you to make decision based on the situations.. Always take the decision that favors you, which gets you what you want, which helps you to move further towards your ultimate goal and destiny :)

Come! Lets live the life!! :)

Discuss your (miss)understandings..

How much ever you try avoiding, misunderstanding happens all the times.. Sometimes it is even worse that the person who misunderstands don't even want to discuss about it. They want to chew their thoughts based on their own assumptions, judgments and based on what they saw, heard, read, or understood. They don't even think in the aspects of "can't there be a tiny possibility of my understanding of what I saw or heard could be different than the other person's intention".

Most of the relationships break only because of misunderstandings. The problem comes when someone isn't open to talk/discuss about what is bothering them and not taking effort to discuss their understanding through open talks. When certain things, especially the ones that bother the inner mind, are not discussed openly, they eventually result in frustration and one day there is going to be a big blast and thats when everything will break..

In some other cases, even if they are ready to discuss it, they keep their mind rigid thinking that what they assume or judge is correct. If the mind is not flexible enough to consider the other person's point of view, there is no point in discussing about it. It is as good as not discussing and eventually it is not going to help.

We might very well be right and what we have understood might be correct, but keeping the mind open and flexible to consider other's thoughts and their side of assumptions and intentions can only help to bring the understandings back to the right track.

During the discussions, it is important to have the attitude of 'I want to workout this relationship..', rather than having the thoughts of 'I'm right and you are wrong'. Most of the times compromises, forgiving, flexibility to understand and consider other's situations are really important to keep the relationship going.

Busy Bee..

Life is going really busy these days. Not finding enough time to sleep. It happens especially when I be lazy for some period and spend my time luxuriously. So now, I have to chase up with those stuff that I postponed and yet do whatever I'm supposed to be doing now. When the backlog increases, it makes life little tougher yet interesting :) May be, I'm a kind of guy who enjoys life when it goes really busy. May be that is one of the reasons why I be lazy for sometime, so that my backlog can increase in multi fold, so that I get enough stuff to keep me busy.. [see, what a kind of excuse I'm giving to myself :D]

Work is keeping me busy on one side, while my personal life still demands much of my time. Especially after resuming the activity [they call it habit, but i'm yet to put enough effort to make it a habit :D] of reading, life becomes very busy. One way it is good. It makes me not to think too much about certain stuff that I normally worry about.

Talking to friends, emailing/chatting with them has increased a bit nowadays. It gives me a good feeling. Planning to go out this weekend for photography. Lets see how it goes. So, how are things your side...?

Reading Ponniyin Selvan

It would have been almost four years since I bought the complete series of Ponniyin Selvan.. I have heard very good reviews about that book, so I thought I would buy it and read it sometime. But I never got time to read it. Just two days back, I thought why not to start reading it slowly. I haven't even completed first book yet (5 books complete the whole story) but I'm amazed by the way the story has been told. Kalki (the author of Ponniyin Selvan) is really a great novelist, I thought.

There are lots of characters, however Kalki managed to write the story such that it doesn't bore. It provokes the interest of the reader and makes them not to keep the book down without completing it. He is really a good story teller. So far I have read almost 23 chapters and I've hardly saw few words repeating. I was wondering how much this guy rich in Tamil literature and Tamil words. His narration is too good. Each and every page is fast paced and very interesting. More importantly, as I mentioned above, I'm impressed by the Tamil words the author used in the novels and his Tamil literature knowledge.

Really loving the book. I'm so very eager to complete the whole series in one shot, but I'm unable to find time for this since I have other priorities. So I decided to read it few chapters everyday, so that eventually I can complete this historically famous novel.

If you like reading Tamil books, I suggest you to read Ponniyin Selvan and I'm sure you wont regret the time you spent on that. :-)

He switched off his phone because I was busy.. :D

My phone rang when I was busy washing my clothes. I quickly went and saw who was calling. It was one of my friends.. 'Let me call him back after few mins..', I thought. So I decided not to pick up the phone and went back to continue washing my clothes.

After few minutes, I called him back.. I heard a sweet lady voice instead of my friend's. She said, 'The number you are trying to call is presently switched off. To leave a voice message press '*' followed by the ten digit mobile number...', I didn't want to hear further. I hung up the phone.

After an hour or so, he called me again. This time I didn't want to miss his call, so I picked up and said, "hiiiiii.. whatz up dude..!".

Instead of telling 'hi', he started complaining me as I don't pick up the phone when he calls. I smiled and said, "Dude.. I was busy doing something else, so I thought I would call you back after few minutes but you switched off the phone..".

I continued to ask him, "why did you switch the phone off..". I knew he wasn't at roaming either for him to switch it off to avoid unnecessary calls.

"I called you, you were busy, so I switched off my phone..", he replied. He might have tried to say something else. And yes, he was continuing to say something else.

I started laughing.

"You switched off the phone because I'm busy..?", I laughed out again.

"******.. first let me complete..", he said louder. That ****** is a bad word he used. And thats his usual way of talking. Then he tried to continue explain me again. But I cut him off again and told,

"You switched off because I'm busy ah..?",  I started laughing again.

"******.. ******.. ******.. ", he started scolding me in bad words. He must have got pissed off.. But who cares, I was laughing! He hung up the phone. I know he would call me back and yes he did..

An old pal's call after several years..

I was hurrying to office and thats when my mobile phone started ringing. I looked at the display of the phone to know who was calling but only the numbers were displayed on the phone. So it is someone new, I thought. Or perhaps a old pal. I picked up the phone and said, "hello..!"

"Is this Paul..?", a male voice on the other side inquired.

"Yes.. It is..", I was quickly searching my memory cells to see whether I am finding a match for the voice I'm hearing.

"Do you know someone named Ashok..?", he asked.

"I know lots of Ashok..? Which Ashok are you talking about?", I said. I really know lots of Ashok. I was really puzzled of the voice I was hearing. I couldn't make out who it was.

"Ashok.. A friend of your friend Karthick.. Karthick from Trichy", he started giving me clues.

Well.. Honestly I knew lots of Karthick's too.. That too lots of Karthick from Trichy. I said, "well.. I know lots of Karthicks from Trichy too. I am really sorry for not able to recognize you.. Could you give me little more details..?', I asked. At the same time, I was thinking very fast to see whether the Karthicks I know in Trichy has any link with anyone named Ashok. But I couldn't think of anyone.

"Ada paavi.. avlo periya aalaayitiyaa..? Karthick-a kooda maranthitiya..?", he immediately switched to Tamil. [ "oh.. You have become that big guy ah.. you even forgot Karthick.." ]

Now I got a match in my memory cells for the voice that has similar flow of Tamil.. I immediately asked, "Is it Ashraf..?"

"Then who else am I talking about.. I have been telling that it is Ashraf. Honestly tell me, how many Ashraf's do you know.. you bugger!!", he got into local Tamil slag.

"Sorry buddy, there had been a confusion. Whenever you were pronouncing Ashraf, I was hearing it as Ashok. Thats why.. I know only one Ashraf dude.. you knew it..", I said. I was happy to hear his voice. We talked for a while then.

It had been more than three and half years since we talked over phone. I knew him through one of my close friends at school, named Karthick. He is Karthick's college mate. But when Karthick introduced him to me, we became good friends.. I even go to their house when I stayed in Chennai. It was more than 3 years back. Then I came to Bangalore and he went to Singapore. After that there were not much contact.

I felt happy about talking to him after a long time. I like that guy since he have been one of my good friends around. He said, "I'm in Bangalore now for some transition phase of my project and will be here for another week time, can we meet sometime tomorrow..?". I said, "yeah.. why not.. I will meet you at your hotel tomorrow evening.."

There are still lots of my good friends with whom I'm not in contact with. It is not that I don't take effort to contact them. I try to contact them sometime, but somehow I lost their phone numbers. They also didn't bother to get in touch with me, it seems. I am still in search of few of my friends in Orkut and Facebook.. It makes to feel good inside when you talk to your old pal after several years..

More than all of these, I sometime scared when some of my old pals call me after several years. They will expect me to remember their voice and will puzzle me to identify who they are. If I say, "no.. I couldn't..", they will take it personally. I don't know why they do that. They will start complaining that I forgot them and I didn't even took any effort to contact them. They would think that I intentionally forgot them or intentionally telling that I don't know them. They don't realize the fact that they also didn't contact me for several years.. Then the situation will become little uncomfortable.. But Ashraf is not one such guy. He understands. I know him and thats why I felt happy talking to him after several years.

Realizing when not to show up..!

Sometimes it does become important just to keep up a smile on the lips and not to show up what is going on in your mind.. Smile is a very powerful weapon. That would make people wonder what you are up to.. Especially in the situations where you are little confused as what you want to do.. Especially when you are talking with someone who is trying to pull your leg (not for fun but seriously).. Especially when your mind starts to think about some drastic decision [ it could be drastic to you or to the other person ;) ]..

I somehow learnt that it is not always good to show up what is going on in your mind. Not to let your frustration, anger, disappointment, shock show up when you are talking with someone who, if they know, can make moves based on that and put you into even more deeper trouble. Sometimes it is good to do things silently. That is one of the best ways to shock the opponent. By opponent, I don't mean a warrior with weapon or pistol. I meant those people who try to take advantage of you, or try to misuse you for their own reason, or try to corner you to gain power, or try to put you into trouble and enjoy when you struggle or those who directly attacks you emotionally or through some other means (if they attack physically that is completely a different topic to discuss since that would become a crime and you can very well file a case :D)..

When people are trying to play games with you (I'm not talking about the indoor or outdoor games) to put you into trouble or try to gain advantage of you, its better not to show up your emotions until you understand the rules of the game and come up with your own strong strategic moves. You might not even want to let them know whether or not you have noticed that they are trying to corner you. Better to watch it carefully and make your moves silently and yet strong.

One day they should understand that your silence never means acceptance or fear. They should be shocked that they made their moves miscalculating what you are capable of. Work silently. Give them a BIGGGG shock one day. And thats the way how you can have your own fun.. 

Why do people take advantage of me..?

These days have been terrible. And they are continuing to be terrible :-( because I was not able to say 'no..' to certain people though what they are asking for is a lot more than what I could possibly give. I'm a completely different personality at business, who knows how to say 'no' whenever it has to be said. But in personal life, I'm opposite. I always find difficulty to say 'no' to those who are around me (that 'around' doesn't include dear ones; because I never want to say 'no' to them at any cost).

Few people are taking my emotional weakness for granted and they are ready to play their game as the way they want to. Just because I'm emotionally weak and kind, lots of people are misusing it. Even during extreme situations, they simply don't understand (or not even ready to understand) my side of explanation. For them, what they want needs to be done. No matter what my situation is or what kind of mental disturbance and torture I go through. They simply take things for granted.

I'm nowadays sick of these people. How long can I be a fool who keeps on bearing extreme disturbance of those people and the advantage that they take over me. Sometimes (in fact most of the times) the only way to let my frustration out is through blogs. I'm still weak. I'm not able to get the courage to tell them directly on their face as, "what you are doing is completely unacceptable..!!"

I don't know how long this is going to continue. Probably when I'm going to repel, its going to be a blast. I'm trying to be calm and patient as much as possible but few people are testing my patience to its extreme limit. I'm unable to accept the fact that they are making use of me just because I'm unable to reject their unfair requests outright.

These days have taught me so much. But how long I'm going to keep on learning without taking action based on what I have learnt. I'm still good may be because I still don't want to tell something on their face and hurt them. But that doesn't mean that I will continue to be so.

Avatar.. nice movie!!

I was little excited about watching the movie Avatar in 3D though my inner mind was concerned about how expensive the day is going to be.. I read the reviews and comments about the movie before going. Everywhere it was said to be outstanding. That tripled my curiosity to watch that movie in 3D.

I got up late and still felt bit of sleepiness in my eyes. May be because I was watching movies through out the earlier night till 3am. We had to explore the roads of Bangalore since we didn't know the exact route to the theater. I felt if we had followed route suggested by Google maps, we could have went easily but it was good to explore the roads.. We took few turns of our own and somehow we reached the theater. It was fun..

And finally in the theater.. watching the movie.. Avatar.. in 3D.. My mind was filled with the thoughts of how costly the ticket was.. And the movie started.. Man!! mind blowing.. I was amazed.. what an imagination.. creativity.. visual effects.. awesome movie.. I felt that it was worth watching in 3D.. It just takes you to a completely different world.. and makes you to feel that you are in that world.. If you get chance (I suggest that you try to get that chance), watch the movie in 3D.. My mind is still filled with the movie scenes..

The day was good :)

And the days are moving..

The days are dry.. A bit of sleepy mood is still there. I think the present chill climate is one of the reasons [ may be a lame reason :D ]. These days are often filled with friends visits. I didn't get much time to think about myself. Always I have been in gatherings these days.

I'm looking forward for some privacy and time for myself.. May be because I have been pretty much used to be alone.. My mind demands to be alone sometimes.. To spend some quality time with myself. To do something that I want to do. Not to have any diversions. Not to be disturbed by other's thoughts and actions. To get lost in my own world and thoughts.

Those are about my inside world. On the outer side, my friend has booked Avatar 3D show tomorrow. I wasn't much interested to go though I wanted to watch the movie. May be because I have lots of works to complete. The main reason is I don't want to spend huge money in movies. But when he asked me, it was kind of tempting.. One of the reasons could be it is 3D. "It is okay to have some entertainment..", I thought. So I said 'yes'. This might be the last movie, a probable last movie, that I might be watching in multiplex. Lets see.

And the inside world again.. Lots of random thoughts are going in my mind. Mind is always racing with lots of 'how do i do..', 'how do i do's.. Nowadays I'm getting too much frustrated for lots of things. I think I have to do something for it. One side of my mind says not to waste any time, but the other side of my mind still in the edge of laziness.

Lets see how things are going to be. Finally I'm getting some time for myself. The house is empty. But my mind is not, which is a good thing :)

Lets play the game.. :)

The new year has started.. I was in vacation mood till yesterday and today somehow got back to my normal mood of work-life balance. I have to over-stretch somehow to complete the work that I was supposed to have completed for the last few days. These days are filled with lots of energy.. But no actions :D Somehow the days are passing just like that.. 'I don't want it to go like this. I have to do something.. Something useful.. Something that I can be proud of..' My mind is filled with these thoughts only..

People are asking me about my new year resolutions. I kind of don't believe to wait for new year beginning to take any new resolutions. May be it is for those who have starting trouble. For those who want some reason for a change. I believe in taking any resolutions or bringing any change or improvement "within" as and when you feel like doing. You don't have to wait for some day to bring a change within you for your own betterment.

It is better to live everyday with the conscious thought of 'what I have done today..', 'how could I have done it in a better way..', 'how can I make my day more useful for me and for others..' etc. Introspecting yourself every now and then is good. If you want to become a better person, to live a better life, to be the best among the rest, then you better introspect yourself often. Keep improving yourself.

More importantly, find out what you are best at.. And make use of it. There is no point in keep on improving without identifying what you are best at. Then you can be a jack of all trades but you wouldn't be knowing what you are master at.

Thats all my new year blabbering. Now I will let you play your game in your own style :) Play safe, play wise, play nice.. At the same time, don't miss the fun :) That is very important :)

Wishing you happiness :-)

WISHING

YOU

A

HAPPY

NEW

YEAR

Lets accept that whatever happened in the past is for good. Lets step into the new year hoping that whatever is going to happen will be good.. As always, the ball is in our court.. Come!! Lets see what life has to offer these new days..

..With Love

Paul

Surrounded happiness..

Confirmation of the train tickets, arrival of my friends, eagerly waiting family, doubled excitements and happiness :) :) All the signs are showing that the vacation is going to be nice and happy.. what else you want for a happy vacation.. I'm happy that the year is completing in a nice way..

On top of all these things, yesterday my friend surprised me with a gift.. A gift from my wishlists :-) Looks like Santa thought about me on this Christmas.. Happiness and excitements got tripled.. :) :) :)

Sometimes I do feel over excited.. Looks like this is one of those times.. I don't feel like working.. If I rule the whole world, I will order, "Set the clock to 6pm.. NOW..!!" :)

This year has become one of the unforgettable years for many reasons.. Both on the happier and sad sides..

Will write a lot after coming back from vacation.. Happy holidays to you all.. Enjoy the chilled weather, the lovely mists, the joy of the holidays, the moments of togetherness, the surrounded happiness.. 

Wishing you a merry Christmas..

Cheers!!

(Re)search within..

Everyone wants to reach some heights [ I'm not talking about vertical height :-) ] in their life.. But not everyone understands or realizes what they are best at.

While some people over-look on their skills and/or ability on something that they are not even good at, there are people who underestimates their real skills and abilities on which they are potentially good at which can take them to the life's greatest heights.Everyone has talents in something.

Identifying the skill in which you are really good at, which can change your life and can make you to get the world's attention.. It is that ability that can bring you whatever you are looking for in your life.. name.. fame.. money.. and what not..!

Lots of people surprise me by saying that they are good for nothing. Come on, gimme a break.. Why are you closing your eyes and saying that it is dark [ If it is a dark night, don't worry, the Sun will raise again in few hours ;-) ]... Open your eyes, there are lots of opportunities in front of you. You are good at what you are destined for. Do a little (re)search within yourself and start rocking the world..

What are you waiting for? THIS is the time!!

Where is it going?

Is it what I really want..? I dunno. Feel like living in a world of illusions.. Will this get me what I want? Or is it just going to be 'yet another monsoon breeze'? Though I feel happy about it, the cells of experience is putting me on alert. At times, it even worries [ is 'worry' a right word to use here, dunno know] me..

What am I suppose to do? Go on..? by hoping that something good will happen..

Sometimes [ is it just sometimes or 'most of the times'? ] I feel that this is what I want in my life.. This is what would keep me happy.. But at the same time, I dunno why, I am little confused as what I should do.

I just couldn't understand the magic of life.. When I want to move away, it just follows me.. When I turn back, it just hides.. It gives me a feel of playing 'hide and seek' game in a sweet little winter night..

Here is yet another interesting part of my life.. A chapter with lots of excitements and twists that will make the readers to keep on turning the pages. Will these characters appear in the upcoming chapters..? God only knows :-)

Why am I staying alone?

Most of the times, my friends ask me, "how are you managing to stay alone?? aren't you bored..? don't you feel lonely?".. It is not that I want to stay alone. But it just happened so..

It is true that I feel lonely sometimes.. But at the same time, it helps me to do whatever I want to do.. To read without any disturbances.. To watch the movie or TV show of my taste.. To think.. To self-introspect.. To blog.. To hear music whenever I want to.. To switch it off if i don't want.. It just that it gives me lots of freedom..

In short, I can be 'just me' when I stay alone.. Nothing more.. Nothing less.. 'Just Me'.. I feel that sometimes such privacy is really required. It is true that staying with nice friends who matches your pulse gives you lots of joy and happiness. I do have such friends but they are not near me. In those circumstances, it is better to stay alone and enjoy the freedom rather than staying with persons who might just mess your life, isn't it? :-)

Some scene that bothered me...

Yesterday I was travelling in a train from Trichy to Bangalore. It was nearing midnight. My train stopped near a level crossing for a while. I glanced outside the window. The plants were dancing slowly in the gloomy night. I looked through the window on the other side. There was another train standing on the next parallel railway track. A little more than middle aged lady sitting near the toilet doors of a compartment in the other train got my attention. Her face was filled with sorrow and sadness.

Her hair was not combed properly.. Her face had lost the happiness.. Her dress was little dirty. Her appearance itself said that she was into deep sorrow and having an aimless journey.. Her eyes expressed lots of unspoken sadness. I dont know why, but I felt pity for her. I wished I could go, sit near her and ask, 'Why so sad?? You can share your sorrow with me if you think that it can make you feel light hearted!!'

In a short while, the train started moving.. So am I with a little heavy heart!!