Sunday, December 17, 2006

Chill weather... Crowded city...And a beautiful girl!

This is about a girl who attracted my attention for a while when i was going to office one day morning... To read more...

Click Here: a beautiful girl on my way to office...

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Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Moments with an old man...

It was an afternoon and i was standing in the Bus stop of this well known city. The hot sun rays were making people to move towards shadows of trees and bus stops here and there. I was not able to stand a long time under that hot sun. So i thought to move to stand under the bus stop shadow until my bus arrives. When i made my move, an elderly voice stopped me. "thambiii..." (if you dont understand that word, its sometimes usual way of calling a stranger in tamil)

The old man, who stopped me, looked very tired. His eyes were dark circled. He would be more than 60 years old.

"Son... i ashamed to ask this but i dont have any other option. i am from **** town and my son didn't want to take care of me. he asked me to get away from the house... so i got away from there. i came to this city thinking that i could work somewhere and earn something for my food. but since i am old, no one is ready to employee me even as a server in the hotel. they are telling what can you do in this old age. it had been four days since i had my food. i feel so hungry. i really didn't want to beg but i don't know what to do. because i feel so hungry, I was thinking whom i can ask... could you give something to get me some food, please..."

His voice was shivering and the words were struggling to come out from his mouth. Of course, he wasn't looking like a begger.

I could see the real hunger in his face. I really felt so pity about his situation. The way he talked really showed that he didn't like to beg but who can stand the hunger for a long time. That too in that kind of old age.

I just opened my purse and took some ** rupees notes ( i didnt count how many notes were there...) and gave it to him and said "Go and have some food...". He really got surprised by my action. He didn't expect that i would give him that much amount without even counting how much it was. I could see a sudden tears in his eyes.

Actually he wasn't crying but got over emotioned. He said "i... i spent all my lifetime and hardwork to make my son to become one of the important person in this society. now his wife has become more important to him... he didn't even hesitate to say 'get-away from here'... but you are someone stranger but ready to help me... i dont know how i could thank you..." He really wasn't able to talk more.

I smiled and said "you look so tired. first go and have some food..."

I have seen lot of persons who is not at all caring about their parents but to the outside world they would say lot of advices like "be like this... like that etc". I really hate persons who ignores their parents who truely worked hard to make him the best person in the society. I wonder how they tend to forget them and how they could be such a selfish fellow who don't even care about how they would feel or how it would hurt them.

I thought that "this is something that we should learn that we should not forget our parents who really helped us to reach such heights in the life and later letting them to beg like this even for their basic needs..." If our parents suffer even for their basic needs, we would never be blessed in our life. Thats what i feel...

Meantime, the bus, which i was waiting for, had come... so i ran to catch the bus... after some struggle with that huge crowd i got into the bus and i tried to see that old man through the back side window of the bus.

He was walking towards a hotel nearby.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

It was my birthday...

I don't know what time it was... I couldn't even realize where I was... It was quite dark... I couldn't see anything... but i could feel that there is some disturbance... which breaks the silence which was there until some seconds back... Some sound that is interrupting my state of mind... Something passes thru my ears and disturbing my mind... I was finding hard to open my eyes... then, suddenly i woke up! It was my phone that was ringing... I hardly moved to reach my mobile and tried to see who was calling...

"Santhosh Calling"


I could hardly see the blinking display on my mobile phone. I tried to see what time it was. The sleep that was left in my eyes blurs my vision. It was exactly midnight 12.00am of 5th November 2006!

"Hi..." I picked up the phone....

"Happy birthday da...", I felt so happy when i heard his voice... It was nice to have him as the first person to wish me on my birthday. The talk continued for some minutes.

Then when i hanged up the phone, a message arrived at my mobile saying "wishing you a very happy birthday paul", followed by another phone call saying "hey happy birthday..."

I really felt very good inside my mind that there are persons who thinks about me... and remembers me and my birthday... there are some persons who wakes up till mid-night to wish me warm greetings...

With lots of happiness in the mind i slept at that time and woke up in the morning a little early than usual and went to Church.

I started getting lot of calls from my friends and relatives on that day wishing me happy birthday.

When i got a call from my home, i could hear that my sister is singing happy birthday song for me over phone and i could also hear some musics played from her side... I was so excited and emotionally felt so happy inside for the kind of affection, love and care that my sisters, my mom and my brother-in-law having on me...


A week before itself, my sisters, my mom and brother-in-law have presented me a gold ring for my birthday which really made me so happy... In fact, i dont like wearning things like that but i love to wear the ring that they presented to me. That always makes me to remember that there are few persons in this world who thinks 'i am their world'. It makes me to remember 'I am so special and gifted with some persons who truely loves me and shows great affection and care towards me'. I feel very happy and glad inside whenever i feel the ring at my finger.

I even get calls from some friends whom i have never even thought that they would know my birthday. It showed that I really have some persons who remembers me. In fact, i started getting calls on 4th of November itself wishing me advance wishes for my birthday saying they might not able to call me on my birthday. That really made me to feel so very much happy that how much they truely like to wish me. Of course, some of my friends didn't call me whom i expected that they would remember my birthday... Perhaps they might be busy with their schedules... But i was glad to get some calls from some unexpected friends... that was great!

I felt that it is really good to have relationship with some persons who truely cherrish our friendship and makes us so happy on some special days... I was so glad on that day... I truely enjoyed my moments... I didnt go outside, but simply sitting at my room and enjoying the moments of getting wishes from my friends...

A day i made my Mom happy...

"Mom is very happy...", my sister told. Her voice was filled with cheers and i could feel the kind of happiness in her tone even though we were talking over phone. "Mom is very happy about what you have bought to her...", she continued. I didnt say anything for that. I smiled within myself. Certain things you cannot express in words but you will feel something good inside you. Then the talk continued with usual things.

It was my mom's long day wish to get a gold chain for her... Here i feel, its quite reasonable to say how was my family situations until i completed my studies... I dont wanna go into details but my family wasn't that much rich to meet each and every individual's dreams and desires... We would get the basic needs satisfied to some extend and the life would be moving on in the same boat... It was my family's dream to make me study well whatever i wish and then to earn well to make my family status a little better to buy what we want and to make our dreams and desires come true...

In that way, one of my mom's long days desire is to buy a gold chain for her... In fact, i didn't know about that... but, i too was thinking of buying a gold chain for my mom...

It was a sunny Saturday evening. "Mom... get ready! lets go for shopping to buy you a gold chain...", I said to my mom. I could see an immediate happiness in her face. On that day evening, My mom, my eldest sister and me went to a Jewellery shop and bought a gold chain in a model that my mom liked. While returning, my eyes were seeing the road side shops which are bright in lights, some darkness here and there in the streets... the wind that blows in our faces... music from some shops passing our ears... but my concentration was not in the street... I was just excited inside my mind that i have bought something to my mom which has brought happiness in her face. She was so happy about that shopping.

When we reached home, my other sisters said,"It was Mom's long day wish to buy a chain for her... because of family situation, she could not buy one for her till this day but she used to say that MY SON WILL GET ME A GOLD CHAIN ONE DAY... she is now so happy that her wishes are coming true!". I turned and looked at my mom. Her face was expressing nothing but a SMILE.

Whenever I ask my mom "what are your wishes...", she never say anything. Her reply would be a smile with lots of love and care with few words saying "Nothing da... you be happy... that will do!". My mom always adjusts herself to our situations and she has used to sacrifice her desires and wishes for us. Though she started forgetting all her desires, I feel its time for me to find out those things and make them true and keep my mom happy. I am so happy that i have started succeeding in that.

The next day night, i started to Bangalore to carry on with my job. The next day morning after i reached home, my phone was ringing. I know it was from my home to enquire whether i reached safely. I picked up the call,

"hello..."
"Have you reached home safely...", my sister asked.
"Yeah very well..."
"Good! by the way, Mom is very happy..." my sister told. Her voice was filled with....(go to the first paragraph)

Thursday, September 28, 2006

One of the cool moments i had...

It was 27th of september 2006... The time is around 11.20 pm... I was alone on the top of the three floor building... Its very cold outside... I was sitting outside my room and watching the nice view of the surrounding areas where most of the windows are glowing lightly in the zero watts bulb in that dark night... while other windows are still bright with the powerful tube lights...

The wind is so cool... In front of me is the hot noodles that i just cooked... On the top of my head is the clouded sky with twinkling stars... The weather is soooo chill... The surrounding is of absolute silence with the light noise from the dogs that were barking somewhere in the street...

When i started eating the noodles it was so warm for that cool weather... The hot noodles was slowly getting inside my throat while the outside of my throat is feeling the strong cold of the wind... What a lovely moments they are... I was simply enjoying my loneliness and the silence that i was surrounded with...

But i had a very disappointed feel that it would have been much better to enjoy those lovely moments if my life-partner would have been with me at those moments to enjoy with me....