Wednesday, December 23, 2009
On top of all these things, yesterday my friend surprised me with a gift.. A gift from my wishlists :-) Looks like Santa thought about me on this Christmas.. Happiness and excitements got tripled.. :) :) :)
Sometimes I do feel over excited.. Looks like this is one of those times.. I don't feel like working.. If I rule the whole world, I will order, "Set the clock to 6pm.. NOW..!!" :)
This year has become one of the unforgettable years for many reasons.. Both on the happier and sad sides..
Will write a lot after coming back from vacation.. Happy holidays to you all.. Enjoy the chilled weather, the lovely mists, the joy of the holidays, the moments of togetherness, the surrounded happiness..
Wishing you a merry Christmas..
Monday, December 21, 2009
It has been almost 2 months since I visited my mom and sisters.. I'm excited that I can spend quality time with my family and friends after a long time. All my friends would be coming to Trichy, so the excitation is more this time. The train ticket is not yet got confirmed. Still in waiting list. But I'm hoping that it would get confirmed. I'm not feeling like working today or tomorrow though my official vacation starts only by 24th [ Ok.. Ok.. I can hear your voices saying 'as though you work on other days'.. Sometimes you shouldn't be talking loud guys.. My manager might hear :D ]
Still 30 hours more to go.. I want the count down to go fast but it is taking its own time :-(
Hope you all are having good time during this holiday season.. Happy holidays.. Enjoy your time with your loved ones, family and friends.. Cheers!!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Sometimes the reality becomes hard to accept. The realities make people to suffer. They make people to hate living. They make people to feel disappointed, sad and completely lost. I sometimes feel like 'I don't want realistic world.. let my dreams and thoughts become my own world..'! But that is never possible. It is a kiddish fairy tale wish.
One thing I learnt in my life is, though the realities are hard to accept, all it needs is little more time to make yourself getting used to what you are into. Lots of people don't realize it. They just get scared in the middle. When you are passing through the tunnel to reach the other side, you might have to travel in the dark. But that never means that your whole life will be dark. It never means that you wont see light any more. All it means that, 'just be patient.. travel through the dark.. but when you reach the other side, it will be bright, sunny and warm.. be little patient!!'
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
It has been a long time since I posted anything in this blog.. I'm nowadays more active on my Tamil blog, but that doesn't mean that I am not going to continue this blog.. It is just that I'm either not finding time to write here or not having some quality content to write [ but that shouldn't be a reason.. because if I look around, there are lots of things happening; so if I say that there is nothing to write, then it would mean that I have closed my eyes and living in my own world.. ] or both..
Wondering why this post is? It is just to resume my activities on this blog.. Both my personal and professional life have been very busy these days. Personal life is facing lots of ups and downs like the sea waves. However the journey has been quite OK.. Nothing to complaint..
As always, lots of things are making me wonder why this is happening.. why in my life.. why did I allow it etc.. But the other side of the mind keeps telling me that these are important in life to keep it interesting.. to make it lively.. There is no point in living a life as a kind of pre-planned tour. Yes, planning is important but at the same time the journey wouldn't be interesting and fun filled unless otherwise it has some last minute hurry, unexpected happenings, little tension, sweet surprises etc.. That tells my mind to be prepared for anything and enjoy everything. I'm internally preparing myself to face any kind of reality; but at the same time, taking effort to execute my own plans to make the life as the way I want it to be as much as possible.
So it has been quite a month.. Lots of learnings.. Lots of realizations.. Falling down.. Getting up.. Few wakeup calls.. Some mistakes.. Few corrections.. And the journey continues..
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Thursday, November 05, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Lots of people surprise me by saying that they are good for nothing. Come on, gimme a break.. Why are you closing your eyes and saying that it is dark [ If it is a dark night, don't worry, the Sun will raise again in few hours ;-) ]... Open your eyes, there are lots of opportunities in front of you. You are good at what you are destined for. Do a little (re)search within yourself and start rocking the world..
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
tomb with flower
Originally uploaded by Wallyford
What is the point in decorating the tomb of your dear ones with flowers when you have deliberately missed all the opportunity given to you to make them feel special while they were alive..?
I have always seen that lots of people in this world never express their feelings to their loved ones, be it love, care, affection or whatsoever, when they are alive.. But they will try in all possible ways to show how truely they loved someone after they have gone. Why you people are being like that? What is wrong in expressing to your dear ones about your love, care or whatever you feel good about them when they are there? Why are you so afraid to make them feel special when they are alive in front of your eyes..?
How many times have you let your loved ones know how good you feel about them? When someone deserves to be told how special he/she is and how good he/she is, why you people are not taking the opportunities given to you to express him/her how special they are and how much you love him/her?
How do you think that a soul, which has passed away, will feel happy by you decorating the tomb with flowers when you didn't take any effort to tell them how worthy they are when they were alive?
Don't you think that you are doing the worst possible mistake in the world, which you can never correct, whenever you deliberately miss the opportunity to express what you feel about someone whenever you feel good about them..? Don't you think that a person, who is alive, deserves more than the tomb that contains just the corpse?
Learn to live the present moment that you got now.. Tell them that you love them when they deserve it.. Let them know that you care for them when they are alive.. Express how much affection you have towards someone when they are with you, not when they are gone.. Let them know how special they are when they truly deserve it.. Tell them how important they are in your life when they are in your life, not when they are gone away.. Why do you wanna control all your feelings and emotions..? Why do you wanna regret later? Now it is your choice...
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Friday, July 03, 2009
It is true that I feel lonely sometimes.. But at the same time, it helps me to do whatever I want to do.. To read without any disturbances.. To watch the movie or TV show of my taste.. To think.. To self-introspect.. To blog.. To hear music whenever I want to.. To switch it off if i don't want.. It just that it gives me lots of freedom..
In short, I can be 'just me' when I stay alone.. Nothing more.. Nothing less.. 'Just Me'.. I feel that sometimes such privacy is really required. It is true that staying with nice friends who matches your pulse gives you lots of joy and happiness. I do have such friends but they are not near me. In those circumstances, it is better to stay alone and enjoy the freedom rather than staying with persons who might just mess your life, isn't it? :-)
Monday, June 29, 2009
Monday, June 22, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
It had just been few days since one of the most famous actor's movie got released.. Though I am not a big fan of him, I said 'ok' to go to the movie since all my friends were so much interested to watch it. I took my nephew also with me.. We had good fun at the cost of Rs. 600 (the amount from my side including the ticket charge of Rs. 250 each for myself and my nephew). The movie was good. Though I normally wont prefer spending so much for movie tickets, I didn't mind about that spending (since we had good fun), until I met two elderly women later the same day.
The same day evening, when I was talking to one of my other friend at the roadside closer to my colony, we were interrupted by two elderly women. Both of them were very old. We were four guys standing there, my friend, my two nephews and myself, and chatting just like that. One of those two old women said that 'it had been more than two days since they had food and asked us to help them with some money so that they can buy something to eat'... They also told that they have been walking for a long time to reach their house which was around seven kilometers away from there. They didn't even have energy to walk, but they didn't have any other choice since they couldn't afford to travel in bus.
One of my nephews searched his pocket and gave them a five rupees coin. I felt pity on them and I really wanted to help them as much as I could. I reached out to my wallet and found that I had only one hundred rupees note left along with some changes. So I took hundred rupees and handed the same to her. She first thought that it was a ten rupees note. Since i felt that they both might not be having proper eye sight, I told them that it was a hundred rupees note. Because I didn't want them to get cheated by someone..
They both were very much excited and surprised since they didn't expect that I would give them that much. But what I felt inside was completely different. I was really sad that I couldn't give them more than that. Because I thought that 'this hundred rupees can help them for another two days max, but what will they do after that?'.. Whenever I help someone in their need, I always feel that "their need is addressed temporarily, but what are they going to do after that?" I worry about this especially whenever I see some old man/woman suffering. One of those two women, quickly took my hand and kissed to express her gratitude. Her eyes were filled with tears and she was telling us how she was treated badly by others when asked for help. The moments became bit emotional.
I started feeling bad that just few hours back we enjoyed like anything in cinema theater watching a movie paying Rs.250 per ticket, which I regretted that time. I could have watched the same movie after few weeks for just Rs.30. The money (Rs. 600) I spent on that movie could have helped those two old women to survive for at least few weeks.
More importantly the happiness that I get by helping such people is so much that it cannot be measured or compared with anything else. One side we spend lots of money on something just for fun, without even realizing that there are lots of people out there who are starving even for their 'very basic' needs. What I realized is that, I get much more happiness when I help such people in their need than the happiness that I try to generate by other means like going to cinema etc.
I also realized that I don't even have to restrict the spending on my own personal needs to help such people. It is more than enough if I stop spending on unnecessary things, which I otherwise term as 'lavish and luxurious spending'. This is just my perspective though..
That moment, I decided that I will never spend such big amount for watching movies.. Whenever such situation comes, I simply decide not to go to the movie (rather I prefer watching it sometime later at low cost) and I will treat it as a savings that I will use to help someone for whom that amount can be a life saver.. This is just an example. There could be lot of such situations in our day to day life where if we decide to sacrifice our little joy, it can be used to light someone's life, which eventually can bring much more joy and happiness into our life...
What we think as 'little' is really a fortune to someone who is starving for his/her basic needs.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Oh boy.. Oh boy!! More than the disappointment of being betrayed, the feeling of becoming the victim of a political game is what hurting me a lot :-(
How did I miss the odds? Well... At least now, I realized it.. It is better now than later.. In that way, I'm happy, however I do not want to miss the lesson of not to trust someone if you already know that the person is a selfish who can do anything if that can gain him/her advantages over you. Especially if it is in official world, you gotta be really careful.
Oh man.. I'm losing my sleeps... I'm so much tensed at the moment (that's why I am posting this at 1.17am in the midnight). I know that I cannot do much about what had already happened. Now I got into a mood that "I don't care any more about what is happening or what has happened..." All I care about is that i gotta be serious and steady on what I really want and start concentrating on... [ F**k you those who are trying to use me as a toy for your own selfish reason... One day you will be paid off, it might not be by me, but definitely you will be taught some lessons by someone ]
Saturday, May 23, 2009
If I look back at my life, there had been such disappointments whenever something doesn't seem to go in the right direction. But sooner or later, I have always got whatever I wanted in my life. Sometimes better than what I expected.. Think good, do good, make your best efforts, expect good to happen, and don't worry so much about the results [ did you notice that, i said dont worry so much; I didn't say don't worry at all, because in a practical world, the feeling of disappointment is inevitable if our efforts doesn't succeed... I just suggest not to get affected so much by the results, because things happen for good reasons only ]... Sooner or later, you can realize that your efforts paying you off in a very positive way.. Don't let your results drive you... Instead learn the lesson, and move on. You can see that what you wanted follows you...